Significant Passage "Thanks to a little bout of insomnia and way too much doses of Tony Robbins, I decided one day to force myself into imagining what it would be like after Kate died. That way, or so Tony vowed, when it really happened, I'd be ready.
I kept at it for weeks. It is harder than you think to keep yourself in the future, especially when my sister was walking around all the time being her usual pain-in-the-butt self. My way of dealing with this was to pretend Kate was already haunting me. When I stopped talking to her, she figured she'd done something wrong, which she porbably had, anyway. There were entire days where I did nothing but cry; others where I felt like I'd swallowed a lead plate; some more where I worked really hard at going through the motions of getting dressed and making my bed and studying my vocab words because it was easier than doing anything else.
But then, there were times where I let the veil lift a little, and other ideas would pop up. Like what it would be like to study oceanography at the University of Hawaii. Or try skydiving. Or move to Prague. Or any of a million other pipe dreams. I'd try to stuff myself into one of there scenarios, but it was like wearing a size five snaeker when your foot is a seven-you can get by for a few steps, and then you sit down and pull pff the shoe because it plain hurts too much. I am convinced that there is a censor sitting on my brain with a red stamp, reminding me what I am not supposed to even think about, no matter how seductive it might be.
It's probably a good thing. I have a feeling that if I really try to figure out who I am without Kate in the equation, I'm not going to like who I see." This passage is important is important because Anna talks about what she would be like if Kate weren't there. This passage is relevant to the story because the reason Kate wants to die is so Anna can live a fufilling and uncontrolled life. In this passage, Anna tells that she is not sure if it would be good if Kate was gone or not. Stephanie Coates: Back to Main Page Stephanie Coates: Back to 8th Grade AT LA 1-2 Page
I kept at it for weeks. It is harder than you think to keep yourself in the future, especially when my sister was walking around all the time being her usual pain-in-the-butt self. My way of dealing with this was to pretend Kate was already haunting me. When I stopped talking to her, she figured she'd done something wrong, which she porbably had, anyway. There were entire days where I did nothing but cry; others where I felt like I'd swallowed a lead plate; some more where I worked really hard at going through the motions of getting dressed and making my bed and studying my vocab words because it was easier than doing anything else.
But then, there were times where I let the veil lift a little, and other ideas would pop up. Like what it would be like to study oceanography at the University of Hawaii. Or try skydiving. Or move to Prague. Or any of a million other pipe dreams. I'd try to stuff myself into one of there scenarios, but it was like wearing a size five snaeker when your foot is a seven-you can get by for a few steps, and then you sit down and pull pff the shoe because it plain hurts too much. I am convinced that there is a censor sitting on my brain with a red stamp, reminding me what I am not supposed to even think about, no matter how seductive it might be.
It's probably a good thing. I have a feeling that if I really try to figure out who I am without Kate in the equation, I'm not going to like who I see."
This passage is important is important because Anna talks about what she would be like if Kate weren't there. This passage is relevant to the story because the reason Kate wants to die is so Anna can live a fufilling and uncontrolled life. In this passage, Anna tells that she is not sure if it would be good if Kate was gone or not.
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